When was the last time you did something positive for your recovery? When did you last push yourself further than you thought possible because you wanted to find yourself a bit freer from the disorder that binds you? Have you reflected recently on your recovery process? Do it now and be honest with yourself. Are… Continue reading What have you done lately for your recovery?
This week hasn’t felt great. Some of it’s me feeling a little out of step, or like I’m drowning and as though I am waiting for someone is going to figure out how I have no idea what I’m doing so they can call me out. My confidence has taken a knock to the extent… Continue reading Check In
A few days have passed since I got moderately real on here about the struggle. The truth is that I was just going to let it fester away in my head and keep hold of that silence. It felt like the safer option. Like if I kept it locked up in there then it couldn’t… Continue reading GP Appointment
There are some days the heaviness of the Eating Disorder weighs on me. I find myself drifting off in to thoughts that I should not be thinking or sitting down to a meal and finding that the fear of it paralyses me and knowing that I have to get over it and do it anyway.… Continue reading 3 Reasons for Silence
One question. That’s what the choice to recover came down to. Over the years I have found myself lost in conflict, doubt and never-ending questions about whether I was doing the right thing. I have fought harder with myself than I have with everybody else combined. Yet the truth is the only question I really… Continue reading One Question
A few days ago I sat in a meeting with a lot of people, one of them who happened to be an old psychiatrist of mine. I would add that I wasn’t there for me as a patient but as part of the committee that he chairs (Yea I’m not sure how I get talked… Continue reading Forgiving Our Healthcare Professionals?
Anxiety has been fluttering inside of me for most of today. It started this morning pretty much as soon as I opened my eyes. It didn’t even have the decency to wait for me to have coffee! I don’t think that it helps that I have begun the process of tapering off my medication with… Continue reading Medication Tapering
A couple of days ago I wrote about my anxiety which has recently been getting steadily worse. It’s not something I ever feel comfortable admitting to because I think that I should be able to control it and admittedly it makes me feel ridiculous. I know that it is nothing to be ashamed about because… Continue reading Anxiety
I wish that Anorexia was a numbers game. That I could measure its hold on me by looking at my scales and making a judgement by what it beeps back. Perhaps then I could convince myself that this was over. That it no longer has any power over me. Yet despite what is largely believed… Continue reading It Would Be Simpler