My head space got worse. It felt like I was sinking into something that felt familiar and normal. The most terrifying part though was how I didn’t care. Out of nowhere I had this sudden narrow minded drive of wanting to make myself less and being completely uninterested in the consequences or damage that I… Continue reading It got loud
It’s fair to say that I am having a pretty awful day, which is something considering that it’s not even lunch time and I haven’t left the house yet. So far I have cancelled my trip to the doctors to have my weight and blood tests done, gone through a ridiculous amount of outfit changes… Continue reading What’s it trying to tell me?
It’s been a few days and I can safely say that I have let go of my anger. It is such a useless emotion for me to experience because all I ever feel is destroyed by it. I truly believe in the Buddhist quote which says “holding on to anger is like drinking poison and… Continue reading Pushing Myself
This week has been difficult for me and its hit me hard. There have been a few occasions where it has felt like I have been torn down a little and made to feel small. I haven’t felt very powerful but instead have been left feeling desperate in my search of some self-respect to hold… Continue reading Rant – Feel free to skip this one
Is it possible to be living your life based on two conflicting thoughts that are running at the same time? If so, this is what I think I’m doing. On one side I have this dialogue saying “You got this, it’s going to be ok, you can find contentment. You will know what it’s like… Continue reading Brief Thoughts on Giving Up
There is a quote that I find I am repeating daily to myself. It is one that reminds me that for everything I do there is an effect and we have to decide whether we can live with those outcomes or not. “We are our choices” – Sartre The lives that we live are defined… Continue reading Choices
My heart has felt restless today. I’m not sure where it’s coming from, only that my anxiety has been pretty high since yesterday afternoon and it’s making me unsure about things. It’s an odd sensation, I equally want to hide from the world and do nothing or do a million different things in order to… Continue reading You will not