I consider myself to be a pretty lucky person because I have a lot of really good people in my life. Over the years they have been there, even when I wouldn’t let them be. When I shut the world out and I shut them out, I thought that would be it. Friendships burnt to… Continue reading Crawling Back
I took a sunshine day yesterday. It’s a new thing I’m trying…and I’m kind of a fan. I bailed on my group and went to my Mothers house instead, where I sat in the garden and got some studying done. It was nice and necessary to help me correct my vitamin D deficiency plus I… Continue reading Mumblings about Today
Have you ever thought to yourself how ridiculous this disorder is? Seriously! What are we doing? We keep going down the same path hoping that we’ll reach a different outcome but it’s not going to happen. Every time I give in, every time I listen to Anorexia, all I am doing is delaying my life,… Continue reading Choosing Recovery
Practical support is kicking my ass these days…although admittedly it is early days. I have done 4 now. One snack and three lunches. I should probably explain what practical is right? Well, basically a member of my treatment team comes round and supports me to have food either at a snack time or they will… Continue reading Practical Support
There are cracks appearing and some days I think they are going to split wide open and swallow me up. There are some that I have been trying to paper over but I realise that it’s not realistic to expect it to last. Sooner or later I’m going to fall in if I’m not careful.… Continue reading Cracks and Trust
I’m not a fan of quiet restless days. They seem to eat away at my brain till all I have left are the thoughts that make me question everything about the universe. I have never been the type to be able to leave things alone but I’m not sure that in the grand scheme of… Continue reading We Teach them Better
It’s possible I’m experiencing random manic mini breakdowns every now and again lately. I’m not sure what comes over me but suddenly feel this need to be a certain way, overcompensate with the smiles so that no one can quite figure out how much I’m hurting inside. It’s not ideal and I think I may… Continue reading Simplicity?