Eating Disorder Recovery · Uncategorized

Thank you

I did one of my challenges today and I wanted to let you know that I did it and I am both proud and unsettled. I don’t think I’ve been that visibly shaken or fidgety for some time now and especially not in front of another person – usually I’m sat so tensed and still that my limbs go numb – but I was today. I didn’t like that. I also didn’t like how my Mother minimised and dismissed it based on the portion I had before telling me that she “wished she had that problem”. Will she ever understand that this is not a game or a quirk?

This isn’t going to be a long post, more of a thank you post. I really didn’t have the motivation to do any challenge today and the thought of it was something that made me not want to eat anything at all. Yet I remembered the promise I made last night…to you and to myself to not put it off or make anymore excuses. That’s what pushed me into the kitchen today and did what I needed to do in order to find a way to just give those chains even a little bit of shake.

So again, thank you and I hope you have been good to yourselves today πŸ™‚

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