How could this happen to us? I think that’s the question that I ask myself a lot! It’s one that I can also never come up with an answer to either. Sure I can find the factors which may have contributed to it. I could even make them link up in some kind of logical… Continue reading How did this happen to us?
For a while I’ve been telling myself that my actions don’t impact on anyone else and that this life that I’m living has nothing to do with anyone else. I guess when I stopped actively trying to kill myself this way, I stopped thinking that anyone else had anything to be worried about. I forget… Continue reading I forget I’m hurting them too
There are some days when I really dislike this whole being a human thing and experiencing emotions. I don’t know what to do with my feelings most of the time and going to my default setting of ignoring them through behaviours doesn’t seem like it’s going to be a very good idea. It’s not that… Continue reading I feel like that girl
My time away has certainly caught up with me today and although it’s not been the most pleasant of days, I do not regret a single thing. Ok, maybe I regret not having enough courage to eat the croissants or crepes but I guess that will come eventually. I guess if I think about it,… Continue reading One day
Paris was wonderful! I’m not sure how else I can describe it. I have had the most amazing time and sometimes I wonder if maybe I made it all up…that it was not possible to see such beautiful things, feel contented and laugh as much as I did…but I did. I’m knackered for it but… Continue reading Paris
My anxiety is a little bit unbearable tonight and I’m not sure why it’s getting like this but it’s making me feel unsure and panicky. This really cannot happen either as my Parents have gone away and I’m looking after my little brother so I have to remain in control and not scare the shit… Continue reading Anxiety is a little intense
Lunch time today was without a doubt one of the hardest meals that I’ve tried to have in such a long time and there is not one bit of me that feels anything but hostility towards it. I don’t want to be this upset about it several hours later but I can’t deny that I… Continue reading Oh Lunch…I did not like you today.
My sister is having a boy!!! I really thought it was going to be a girl but nope I was wrong on this one. I saw his little heartbeat and his leg kicking out and I’m not sure if an ultrasound picture can possibly be cute, but it came pretty damn close. Now, you may… Continue reading Restoring relationships
It’s been a bit of a weird day today. It started off fairly disheartening as I made my way to the unit this morning for my appointment with my therapist. I guess the struggles that I’ve been facing and tiredness that has come from that showed more than I would have liked. We talked about… Continue reading Time frames, results and crappy people.
I did one of my challenges today and I wanted to let you know that I did it and I am both proud and unsettled. I don’t think I’ve been that visibly shaken or fidgety for some time now and especially not in front of another person – usually I’m sat so tensed and still… Continue reading Thank you