I have been in a bad mood all afternoon and I recognise that it has not made me the most pleasant person to be around. The world seems to have frustrated me every time I attempted to interact with it and so in response I spent most of the day inside choosing Netflix as my… Continue reading Can you understand?
Here is what I learnt today: The reality of between what I think is happening to my body in regards to weight is completely different to what is actually happening. I went to the unit this morning for my appointment and it would be a fair assessment to say that I was a little bit… Continue reading Weight changes
Fighting an Eating Disorder is such a difficult thing to do and I think we can often forget how much energy we have to invest into claiming back our lives from something that we have believed for so long was going to save us. It is easy to get frustrated with ourselves because the process… Continue reading What are YOUR motivations?
I got really distracted by chocolate cake today. It was someone’s birthday at work and it took so much effort to not burst into tears in the middle of my meeting because I knew there was no way I was ever going to let myself have any. I just sat there and stared and tried… Continue reading Chocolate cake distractions
I seem to have stepped back from the emotional collapse that I almost had going on the other day which is a relief. It hurt far too much to be that way. Those moments however seem to be happening more and more frequently which is a little bit worrying but I’m trying not to let… Continue reading Figuring this out
I’m tired today. Tired of being angry and sick. Tired of fighting battles which I don’t want to fight. I’m tired of smiling in the right places or trying to be optimistic. I’m tired of burying my hurt under layers of crap. I’m tired of saying I’m tired. I don’t want to do this. I… Continue reading Tired of being tired.
It is possible that I up until tonight I have underestimated how much I’ve been missing my best friend. I thought that I could do this life thing without her present but that isn’t true. I’ve needed her and she’s needed me and in truth we just haven’t really been there for each other in… Continue reading My Person