Internal dialogue for the last couple of days… “My thighs are too big and I have to find somewhere to live. I don’t know how I’m going to afford it. I need to stop eating that it’ll make it better. Essay deadlines are coming up and I have exams soon and I need to recover.… Continue reading Internal dialogue
Things are beginning to become a little bit clearer in the last couple of days and although I still feel somewhat adrift at least I have made some decisions as well as having some down time. I’m definitely not going back to my flat so I’m going to have to move, sooner rather than later… Continue reading Downtime productivity
My emotions nearly caught up with me today and it scared the crap out of me. I sat in my car outside my mother’s house, talking to my best friends mum and swallowed that awful lump you get when you know your going to cry. It just all seems kind of overwhelming right now and… Continue reading So much talking!
“Every weight loss program, no matter how positively it’s packaged, whispers to you that you’re not right. You’re not good enough. You’re unacceptable and you need to be fixed. I officially reject that message. I reject it for myself, and I reject it on your behalf, too.” — Kim Brittingham, Read My Hips: How I… Continue reading Sharing a quote
Today kind of fell apart for me and by mid-afternoon I was ready to crawl in to bed, hide under the duvet and watch something on Netflix’s…and I’ll be honest with you here guys, that is exactly what I did for an hour. My morning got cancelled which was disappointing because I had been really… Continue reading Good chaos
It’s been a better day for me today ED wise. It hasn’t been so loud or punishing than it has been this last week and I hope that that is because it’s a sign that I’m getting stronger rather than just the tiredness I feel wiping me out. I’m working hard at staying connected with… Continue reading It’s not possible to outrun it
Tonight I got a little reminder from a friend that although there are a lot of things that I can’t control right now, such as being afraid and anxious, I can control how I let it impact my actions. I can decide whether or not it’s going to be another reason to let the eating… Continue reading A reminder