Each morning I get up with the belief that I am fuelling my body adequately, maybe even too much. The guilt of yesterdays meals lingers and the anxiety of the food ahead makes me want to go back to bed. Yet I cannot deny that I like waking up, getting up without the floor flying… Continue reading I do not want to be bloody delicate.
Dear You, I know this life has been difficult for you and on some days it feels like the pain will never stop. I’ve seen the tears that you’ve wept and the screams that you let escape when it all became too much. I’ve watched you crumble to the floor when the despair became so… Continue reading Dear You…
I thought by now I would have sailed past these bad days and on my way to picking myself up again, assessing the damage and then moving on, and yet I’m not. If anything I’m getting pulled further in, wrapping myself up in all the things I don’t say out loud anymore. It is starting… Continue reading It’s crap but I’m not giving up.
I’ve woken up today with some sort of heaviness in me. I just want to cry or go back to sleep. My recovery motivation just isn’t there and already my mind is telling me that I can should skip lunch, it’s not that important. Lets just get back down to a number that feels ok,… Continue reading Photo’s
Ever have those days that just seem to start off kilter and don’t seem to get much better? It’s like you’re running round trying to frantically catch up and you can’t. It’s been one of those days. Don’t get me wrong it wasn’t terrible and I seem to just fall in love with my course… Continue reading Little bit of sadness.
I thought this weekend was going to be about resting, getting bits of work done and just restoring a little balance that I seem to lose during the week. I have had no plans to go out or see anyone and I was looking forward to it. Yet I think the weekends are always going… Continue reading Weekends are hard.
These last few days have been hectic and I have been doing my best to take care of myself and attempt to hold on to some patience but it has not been easy. It seems that in order to do things that are good for me I have to shut down some part of my… Continue reading Saturday morning thoughts.
I’ve been swaying backwards and forwards on the subject I want to write about tonight. Initially what I began was a post on body image, the idea of getting lost in the mirror at the beginning of the day and staying trapped as it carries on. But during the last couple of days there have… Continue reading Brief thoughts on re-feeding
There isn’t a day that goes by when the subject of Mental Health does not touch my life in one form or another. Often it is personal, my own struggle, my own anguish with a brain that often feels like it’s betraying me. Sometimes it’s through work or social media, but by far the hardest… Continue reading A friend.
This morning feels like I’m on the brink of something, on the boundary of falling apart or coming together. I need to work out a way to start containing myself and my emotions rather than letting them consume me. It has been a few days where I’ve felt like I’ve been swimming through fog and… Continue reading Gentler day.