I think I’ve been fooling myself into believing that I can do everything that has to be done whilst still holding on to a level of restriction. Tonight I think I’m starting to realise that I can’t. Not physically at least. My body hurts, my head hurts and because of all this my heart is… Continue reading Giving it a rest for the night.
I’m moving!!! After months of a living in the flat below the horrible neighbour (who I swear has been trying to drive me slowly insane) it is finally over. I signed for the keys yesterday and I have the rest of the week to get packed and organised and moved. My head is currently running… Continue reading Finding my voice again.
I’m sorry guys, it seems like all I’m doing at the moment is having little rants at you because I can’t quite muster up the courage to have them in my real life. I don’t want to make this an angry blog that just is a long stream of woe me complaints. I was having… Continue reading Hating the whole diet industry right now.
Normally I like to write first thing in the morning. It sets me up for the day, clears out my head of unwanted thoughts that might otherwise bother me throughout the day. I love routine, and writing is part of that, after coffee and yoga. The only thing I got round to doing this morning… Continue reading Night-time wanderings.
Morning, Guess who didn’t wake up crying this morning? Yep, me! My mood has drifted in to a space that is reasonably alright. To tell you that I am relieved is an understatement. I’ve been letting my thoughts get away from me the last couple of days. Going to places in my mind that make… Continue reading No tears today.
I need to have a little rant right now because I’m not doing so great. I’m tired…over-tired and a little bit emotional. For some reason all I’ve wanted to do all day is cry. I know that it’s just a bad day. I know that this won’t last forever. Yet my brain wants to go… Continue reading Little bit of a rant.
Give me one sign that the measure of my worth is entirely dependant on how deep the valley between my hip bones dip; and I will hand over my body willingly to be ruled under your command, so that you may stretch and contort it into whatever shape you please. And if you can’t do… Continue reading Sign of salvation.
As each day passes, recovery is becoming more important to me. The seduction of losing myself in restriction gets less, and the need to get healthy and strong are over-taking the negativity that still resides somewhere inside of me. Despite my initial hesitations about the weekend away with my mum and sister, I ended up… Continue reading Empowered
Good Morning. I am done feeling sorry for myself now and wallowing in some type of misery. I think I probably just needed to have a day to get it out of my system, at least I hope that I needed only a day and can now move on from it. It’s difficult to know… Continue reading I’m not who I was.
Randomly I feel like crying this morning, but I don’t know where it’s coming from. It seems I wake up as a different person, housing different thoughts and emotions everyday lately. It is very exhausting trying to keep up. Yet ever since I started to get better, it’s like I can’t say in my regular… Continue reading Not a good mood day.