Why do people make their eating disorders about other people? As though they are looking for someone to prove something to.
I see pictures with the caption of “Make them regret the day they ever called you fat”
Who are you trying to make regret? The people who will move on with their lives, have families and children whilst you are still trapped in that moment. You are ruining your life, not theirs. It’s you that has to sit there, curled up on the couch, wrapped in a blanket in the middle of summer because your body is shutting down. It is you trapped in your own misery, on your own because you’ve shut everyone out.
Someone else said something to me last night, that they have to prove people wrong. That they can still do everything despite people saying they couldn’t, such as going for run. What is gained by proving them wrong? Nothing! They will have let it go whilst you are trying to figure out for the next week if your heart is going to stop while you are sleeping, It’s not about them. It’s not about hanging on to something in the hope that it makes you seem stronger or whatever rational you want to use. It’s about you. It’s always been about you, and somehow you have to figure out how you are going to make peace with yourself, with the world and your body.