Eating Disorder Recovery

Scales

No matter how much time passes, it is still hard. Still hard to get on that scale, watch the numbers go up and still make yourself sit down and eat.

Everyday I torture myself with my scale, and not just once but repeatedly! Obviously it is not doing me any good, but for some reason I cannot stop or step away. It’s ridiculous really. I know that the scale will change throughout the day. I know that that number has no reflection on the type of person I am and ultimately means nothing. I know this but for some reason I am still looking for what? Reassurance? Safety? Validation? A whole lot of things that I will never actually find in a number.

I have to stop. I have to get off the scale. I have to stop wasting my life like this.

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